I will always be ready for my girlfriend

I want to tell you something

2009-09-19T21:10:00.000-07:00

Kwai gyee ~ here is the words that I want to say to you . Now PMR is around the corner. You don't need to worry so much, just focus in your exam is good enough already. Our relationship will be back to normal after the exam . You don't need to think so much. I will be with you all the time. Anytime you need me you can just call me. You don't need to be afraid that our relationship will change to bad, everything seems to be alright. I will pray for you all the time, I will still stand before you . I love you all the time . Hope you can see my blog and you will feel better and peaceful . I love you honey muaxx
You don't need to feel sorry to me , you just do your best is good enough ok . I love you lao po muaxx

My first year anniversary with my girlfriend

2009-08-15T03:58:00.000-07:00

Hi Hi ~yesterday 14/08/2009 was my first year anniversary with my girlfriend . Wah so happy !!!!! That night after my math tuition , I quickly rush back to home to cook spaghetti for her . Actually I wanted to buy something for her , but I cant go out from the house and I was not free at all . Because on the same day I have my B.M test , so I was just preparing . At the evening I called up my mom , I ask her to buy the food to cook spaghetti .
So at night after my math tuition , I rush back to home , and I prepare the food to cook spaghetti , after prepare the food , I called up my mom to teach me cook . This is the first time I cooking spaghetti .
At the mornig I was looking for her , but I cant found her , so I pass the spaghetti to her classmate and pass it to her . When recess time , I go to canteen and I also looking for her , but she did turn up also . I was kind of dissapointed ald . So after thye recess I go back to class and have my B.M paper 2 . So when the school finish ald , suddenly my friend pass a plastic bag to me , she say that is the present that my girlfriend give it to me . Then I take out the present from the plastic bag , and it is a T-shirt . The shirt is very nice , and I very love it . I was very happy .
After I went home I faster take bath and clean myself so that I can wear the shirt that my girlfriend give to me . Wah , Oh my god is just nice for me !!!! before I try I was so scared that is no big enough for me . But after I wore , is just nice for me !!I was very happy . Then I quickly keep the shirt .
After that I went to sleep until 4.00P.M and i wake up to study . When 5.00P.m I went to play basketball . Then I though that she wanted to come out for cycle , but at the end she did not come out , so I ask I come to look for you is it ok ? Then she say no need because I din have bicycle , then I say nevermind I will get it from my friend , then this and that finally she say want so I quickly borrow bicycle and rush to her house just to see her ! When I see her I was so happy because I can see my lao po ald !!!!!! We have a talk but just a short time , but is ald good for me and her . Atleast we can see each other for 30 minute , is good for us ald . So After that I rush back and give back the bicycle to my friend and I run back to my house and go for my tuition.I was very happy yesterday !!!!!!!!

I be couple with my girlfriend again .

2009-08-09T05:22:00.000-07:00

HiHi , everybody I got a very very good news for your all . I be couple with my girlfriend again already . Wah , I was very happy oh !!!Before we haven couple again , I was like a dead dog , I got no mood to study , no mood to eat/drink , no mood to talk , is just no mood for everythings . But infront of her I act like very happy , because I dun want to let her know that I very sad ,because I also know that she also very sad for this things . I know she also no mood , so I have to act happy infront of her so that she will not feel sorry to me .
But luckly we have a talk on monday , so we just say out whatever in our heart . After the talk ,I realize that a part of it is my fault also . I feel very sorry to her .Before that I hide a lot of things and did not tell her the truth , and everytime shows black face towards her and make her not happy .So now I start to change I will tell her all thye things that happens to me , everytime I see her I will smile and I also will make her laugh.I want to make her happy .
I very happy because I can get back my girlfriend again . I wont let her go again from me . I want to make her happy , no matter I will suffer , I will get scold from my church friend or what I also dun care , most important is she happy .

Broken Heart

2009-08-01T08:03:00.000-07:00

Few days ago , I girlfriend sunddenly want to break with me . I was get a shock man . I dun know what to do , somemore that time I in tuition , but I ask permission from my teacher to go out to make a call . I faster press her phone number but she did not picked my call , I was so nervous and so sad and angry . My mind was blank , do know what to do . Then I tears started to come out , I think she is the only girl that I cry for .After that , I quickly ran to my best friend , and I cry infront of him . After I cry ald , I went to a mini market to buy a cigrette. Oh man , I smoke one pack in an hour time man , that was really shock .After smoking I went back to my house , and I cry again , I ask myself why my girlfriend want to break with me . I was very very very sad . After crying , I was too tired because I smoke too many , so I went to take a bath then I went to sleep .
The next morning , when I woke up ald I feel not going to school , because I dun know how to face her . I was very sad , and dun know what to do . But I have no choice I have to go to school . When I reach school , I go have a walk with my friend because I want to avoid her , I really dun know how to face her . When recess time I saw her from far away , she was be with her friend . Oh man , I was very sad , like wanted to cry , but I cant because infront of me got a lot of people . So I just tahan , tahan and tahan . After that , miqian and munesh come and to talk to me , I cant show sad face to them , so I pretend to be happy infront of them . Suddenly miqian come and ask me ,you break with my girlfriend ?I got a shock , I ask myself how she know it ?Then she just say all kind of thing which is I also du understand more . But is okok lah , not so bad lah . After I went to 3 zamrup with my friend , because I just dun want to stay in class , if I stay in class I will think all kind of stupid things , so I decide to follow my friend . But very fast I came back to my class , because I am totaly out of mood .
After school ,I have to stay back for my C.F , but I already out of mood , but I just go only , but luckyly just have three people . Our C.F end up very fast , and i quickly ran back to my class to take my wallet back . I was very scare that the wallt will go missing , because the wallt is kwai gyee give me . But luckyly I get it back . After that I go back to find gabriel , but I saw an umbrella and a bottle was hanging on the staircase there . I know the thing is kwai gyee left it there , so I quickly find her because I want to have a talk with her . I know she is hidding inside the toilet because that is the only place that she can hide for it . So I call up her name , but nobody answer . When I wantes to go off , I saw two girl was coming up so I ask them to go insise and see got people inside the toilet , so they went inside and they come out and say , got a girl is inside . So I waited her , and I walk down and i come up again , finally I saw her , when she saw me she quickly ran inside but I call up her name , so she stop. I say to her :you keep away from me , is it the way you want to solve the problem ? But she din say anything so I just ask her to go outside to wait for her parents . After that I just walk off .
When I go back home , I had my lunch and I just sleep , because I just want to keep my mind clear and dun think anything . After that I go out and buy a cigrette again , then I cycle to the place that I always dating with kwai gyee . At there I already smoke 10 struck ald . There is the place that we always dating , so much of thing that I think there . Then I started to cry again, I think and think and think , and i smoke ,smoke ,smoke ,suddenly I saw I smoke all ald . Then I call up my friend and we go eat . At there I buy a cigrette again , that i started to smoke again .
After that my stomach was very pain so I go home and take a rest . At night I have to go for prayer meeting ,but my gastril was from bad to worse ald . My face was white in colour until my mom was so afraid of me . After that I go home and I cry again , I suddenly think of kwai gyee . Then I cry cry cry , after that I sleep like a pig until this morning .

My sad feeling

2009-07-12T06:39:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone , how are you ? I am very sad ah !!! This few day I did not talk to my dad , me and my girldfriend relationship not so well , and anyway I got a lot of things to think , got a lot pressure !!This few day I wanted to call my girlfriend and have a little talk with her . But she did not picked her phone , than i was very angry and very sad . Actually I already now her character , but why I still so angry !!!I also dun know ? Actually this few days i was thinking naybe we need to seperate for a little while ,let both of us calm dawn . But I cant just do like this . So I go ask my teacher , she say me and my girlfriend need a talk . Sometimes I feel my girlfreind is not happy when she is with me . I always see her like somethings is in her mind ,but when I ask her she will say nothing . So I will be very angry . Actually I got a lot of things wanted to tell her or write here but right now I really dun have the mood to say anythings or to write anything . !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I just feel very very very sad .

My feeling

2009-07-12T06:37:00.000-07:00

I want to say sorry to my girlfriend

2009-06-10T08:35:00.000-07:00

Honey ~~I am very sorry to you that what I have did to you .Everytime when I quarrel with you I will feel very bad to myself . About ,why I cannot just think for you , just love you more then quarrel with you ????why ????Tell me why ????why why why ????I very hate myself . I still can remember one time that I quarrel with you beside the road , and I say I very suffer to beeing do this and that and if you still continue like this , do you want to break uo with me , I ask like this . I also dun know why that moment I will ask this question to hurt you . Until now I also cannot forgot the moment ?Feel very bad ,very sad . I am very very very de sorry to you . Everytime we quarrel you also will tolerate me .Dun know why ???Lao po we have been quarrel so many times already , and everytime also you tolerate me , I feel very sorry to you .All I can say is just , Lao po:I am very sorry about what I have did to you , I promise I will not quarrel or scold you anymore . All I will do is just talk nicely to you ,let you more understand me ok.

My feeling for this few days

2009-06-10T07:57:00.000-07:00

Hi , wow this few days I was very tired and feel very annoyance because I have another big quarrel with my girlfriend .But now we are find already .Actually is very small matter but I dun know why I Make until so big problem and dun know why I will think so much of it . Sometimes I very hate myself , I dun know why I will so worry , so scare , think so much negative things . And sometime I also very angry about my girlfriend , because sometimes she dun know how to think about my feeling , think what I need from her and this and that ....I very angry of myself ah !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Some of my friend ask me to break with her but I would do it , is not that I not dare is just that , now i couple with her or you couple with her . Although my friend is correct , but I still dun want listen to them , because I have to make my own decision. All I know is I still very love my girlfriend and she also very love me that's all I need . Love a girl is no need to care what is her character or what . All you need to do is just love with happy , joyful , need to be with her , with she need you , you will appear infront of her and help her , love her , give her all you have . And one more things , we have to be frankness to our girlfriend or boyfriend , everythings must talk to each other , anything discuss with your bf or gf so that we can be more understand to each other . This few things you do , you and ur gf or bf relantionship will be stabil . After this time quarrel with my girlfriend , I know that we have to be more understand to each other ,have to be more frankness to each other no matter what things . I know maybe I write like story , but is true .

My youth events 'No Applogies"

2009-06-07T07:20:00.000-07:00

Yesterday is my church having a event that is 'No Applogies '.WOW I have a lot of fun in this events . This event is talk about 'Love , Life and Sex '.Is tell all the young people dun not have sex before you are married , and you must wait until you have meet the right girl ,and you will be together with the girl the rest of your life . Sex is a very happy things but at the same time the bad things are coming after you have sex hahaha . Is that scary ?Ya sex is very scary , because if you have sex with a boy or a girl ,you might be a father or a mother after the moment . When you become a mother or a father you have a big big big responsible to take care of the girl and th e baby .You need to bring up the family ,need to spent time with the baby . And this and that , it is so difficult to bring up a family and a baby .You need to teach the baby since he is young , otherwise he will become devil .If you still study mean , that will be even worst ,you haven working , haven graduate from school ,haven have any economic and this and that , how you want to support a family ,a baby ? Tell me how ?????So I advise everyone , you cannot have sex with a girl , you must tahan until you married a girl that you love her forever . If you have sex in this moment, you will hurt the girl , hurt yourself , hurt your family , end up you will hurt everyone who love you . ok write until here . bye

My holiday

2009-06-07T07:06:00.001-07:00

Hi , everybody . How was your holiday ah ? Do you feel happy to have holiday ? I not so happy la , because cannot see my girlfriend , cannot talk to my friend , stay at home do nothing soboring . Well I went to K.L last week until thursday only I came back . I very happy to see my aunty,my grandparents . Actually this time I go back K.L I plan to go shopping with my mom but end up we go visit my anuty , my grandparents . But at the night I go cyber cafe with my brother and my friend , we go until midnight 4-5o'clock ,after we go cc , we go have a nice buger . Wow that was very awesome man ! But is very tired , because sleep in the morning . But is good to have fun with my friend . Actually I can come back on friday night , but suddenly I receive a call from my father ,he say I have to come back on thursday because I have meeting on friday afternoon with my youth leader at church ,the meeting is about our youth event on saturday . So we have to arrange all the stuff .ok lah , I write until here bye . Happy holiday to all of you .

My feeling after my prefect camp

2009-06-02T07:56:00.000-07:00

Hi everybody ,how are you'll . I just come back from my prefect camp few days ago .Now I want to tell you'll my feeling through the camp .This year our camp place is Batang Kali .This year camp is much more better then last year .When I first go to this camp I feel the jurulatih was very friendly and very funny .Not like last year very serious not good , some more last year we cry at the camp . This year is very very very good . I can learn a lot of things in this year prefect camp .Not like last year I was very blur in that camp , I dun know what I am doing , what I have learn from last year camp . But this year camp I still can remenber what I have learn from this camp .I have learn A team must have teamwork , without teamworkwe cannot do anything , but if you have your team member to help you . problem will be selesai more easier,more faster . I have also learn never said no to no . we must try to do our best before we say no . If at first we say no and yet we heaven try that is a biggest mistake that we have do . We must try our best first . We must have disiplin to do everythings that we must do , we can't just do half way and just leave it there . We must love our friend , friendship is very very very important to us in this world . Without friend we can't do thing alone , and sometimes we will feel lonely without friend . I also learn about arrangement , when we do things without arrangement things will just go anyway . So if we have arrangement plus friendship and teamwork ,when we do things we will feel happy , enjoy ,and somemore . Actually I have learn more then this few things , but I forgot already . Ok write until here bye . Enjoy your holiday , happy holiday . bye

Today exam

2009-05-25T02:14:00.000-07:00

Today is english and sejarah . Today english normal only . But sejarah damn freaking hard . I can't remember what I have study yesterday . I study until 2-3 o'clock also no use . It only make me feel damn tired . Today I din talk with my girlfriend and din saw her . I dun know why lah , I feel very sad lah , maybe I din saw her today . I so miss you Lao po . very very very miss you oh . om , today write until here , good luck for all the student that are having exam , good luck oh .

My third day of exam

2009-05-22T08:28:00.000-07:00

Today is my third day of exam , today is chinese only . today I very tired oh , dun know why yesterday I sleep so early , today I also feel tired . Maybe somethings wrong in my body . Today I din really talk to my girlfriend , because I really very very tired . Until I cannot tahan , my brain just like a computer is going to shut down . I got no mood , dun want to do anything .Today , my girlfriend is going to Bukit Raja for swimming , I feel like also want to go , but vry sad I dun have transport .Today I dun have mood to write anythings lah , so I just every student that are having exam in this moment Good Luck . bye

My first day exam

2009-05-21T00:36:00.000-07:00

Today is my first day of exam . Today is B.M 1 and 2 after B.M is P.seni . B.M damn hard , I dun know how to do the essay and that is not enough time for me to do , so I just simply do it . Today I did not talk to my girlfriend more because I want her to fokus in her exam , actually this is not the main reason .The main is we dun have the chance the meet each other . I damn sad because i wanted to talk to her after school , but I have prefect meeting , so I have to go for my meeting cannot talk to her .I dun even have the chance to ak her how about her exam .But no need to ask her already know that she can do it . I believe that she can do it . Hope tomorrow she can do her chinese well . Good luck for every student that are having exam in this time . bye

my school day

2009-05-19T00:40:00.000-07:00

Today, I am very tired because i slept very late yesterday . Today i very happy because i see with my girlfriend during chinese class so i did not feel any tired . After recess , i was scolded by a teacher , she scolded me because i din do my duty well . I was very angry , but i din fight back against her , because she is my teacher . Sometimes i will think maybe i am not suit to become a prefect . Because prefect no freedom , and need to obey the school rules . Even though i can't talk to my girlfriend . I feel very suffer . I want to quit my prefect , but i will think again and again , why i can't take the challenge. Although is suffer , but i will stil do my best to serve the school , to help the school .
Now exam is around the corner , i will study hard and do my best to show to all the teachers , my parents , my friends ,my girlfriend too that although i am naughty but i still can study to get good results .I want to show them i am not useless ,brainless ,and hopeless . And i also hope my girfriend will get good results too .I have trust in my girlfriend that she can do well in this exam , at the same time prove to her parents that althoght she with me also would effect her study . This is my promises to her and everyone that i know .

Myself and my family

2009-05-15T08:36:00.000-07:00

Hi , my name is Samson Tan Zhao Yuan .I am 15 years old .I study in S.M.K Batu Unjur . I stay at Bandar Botanic in Klang ,Selangor .I am a christian , from BFC church .I have six family member incloding me .